我想，我已经到了老化的开始阶段了。我的记忆力开始慢慢的衰退，很多事情我已经忘记了。我发现我也把最原始的我给忘了。是什么时候忘的呢？我也不知道。

这还不是最恐怖的。最恐怖的是我的身体也在告诉我说它正在一步一步的变化，它也在变老。这种老并不是年龄的老，而是身体状况的老。我的颈项的状况最近越来越不好了。时不时就会酸痛。不只别过头的时候会痛，连睡觉的时候也会觉得痛。就连现在，打这则留言的时候，它也在给我努力的发痛。

还有，我为了把经痛给治好，正在服用的药物开始它的大副作用了。一开始服用时，它只会在你服用它之后的一小时头昏想吐。慢慢的，在服用它的2个星期后，眼睛就会变得干燥。然后，当我继续服用它，我的情绪起伏变得越来越大，经痛，也在没来经的时候痛。我开始变得不大会控制情绪。这个变化，让我越来越想缩进我的贝壳里，不想出来。我开始不会衡量事情，也不会分辨对与错。我变得不会求救，只会缩。

今年的课业也不知道为什么的，它就是比去年的来得大很多。功课一来我就忙着做，做完了它又重来一圈。在我这种情绪的状态下，我不知道我走了几个圈，只知道，关上门，我一直缩在房里绕圈圈。出了门，我就得好好的做不是现在我自己的正常人。压力吗？谁不会有。只是不同范围的压力罢了。但它还是一样的难搞，还是一样的让人感到它的存在。这是我选的路，没人会帮我的，因为没人了解，因为大家都活在自己的自我了解里。

如果可以后退，我还是选择往前走。除非一开始我不属于这的世界。

I am an idolist.

~And i contribute a lot to Japan's economy~

OH MY GOODNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOSE ROOM IS THIS?!?!?!




~Spot mickey!~

狗狗从来到这个家，就把主人当成最要好的朋友。
因为在这个世界上，主人懂狗狗多过狗爸狗妈。
主人上班的时候，狗狗静静的等待着主人的归来。
然后在主人回来的那一霎那，狗狗就摇着尾巴，以响亮的叫声迎接他。
狗狗也会为了讨好主人，咬着拖鞋递给主人，只为了一声赞美。

可是，当日子一天天的过去，
主人的赞美也早已不再，换来了理所当然。
主人的要求越来越高，狗狗会的花招却还只是递拖鞋。
年复一年，狗狗还是达不到要求。
到最后，就得到了嫌弃。

狗狗尽力了，主人却看不到。
狗狗后来学会了接丢球，主人却不想玩了。
狗狗已经会看脸色了，主人却越摆越黑。
狗狗想解释什么，主人却不听了。

久了，狗狗就习惯把解释放进心里了。
狗狗已经累了，
因为它已经被主人的高要求打败了。
狗狗想狗爸狗妈了，
因为它知道主人不想要他了。
狗狗想睡了，
因为它已经看不见未来了。

~狗狗哭了，它的心哭了~

The drama series titled "My Girl", is scheduled to premiere this Fall 2009 on Friday October 9th; 11:15pm.

CAST
* Aiba Masaki as Kazama Masamune

Horray!!! After a long wait, Aiba's drama is finally showing soon!!! I learnt about it in the beginning of August. And i waited so long for it until i sprained my neck!!! (This is true, i really did sprain my neck yesterday.. Haha!!)

This is the CM for Aiba's drama. It has been long since Aiba last acted, as a main somemore. Quite worried for him..

CM 1:


CM 2:


Synopsis
The story revolves around a 23-year-old man named, Kazama Masamune. During high school, he had a girlfriend four years older than him, but she suddenly leaves to go abroad. Six years later, he receives news that she has passed away. In addition, she secretly gave birth to Masamune's daughter. Now the five-year-old daughter, Koharu, is returning home to Japan, and Masamune must raise her.

~Ganbare Aiba chan~

To add on something funny.

Later that day after the Anan issue (pls see the post below), i was msn-ing ming when she told me that her bf complained that she waste $$ on a key cover which she bought from Daiso for $2.

And so, i replied her telling her to tell her bf that...

Me: Tell him. Bought from Daiso de. Only 2 butt!!!

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BUTT.....

~The difference between BUCK AND BUTT~

On sunday, Jolleen called me eagerly and asked me to go online to read a blog post. I was wondering why she was so excited about that post and kept urging me to go online. And so, i went to read that post, and found out that AKANISHI JIN was on the coverpage of Anan Magazine.

Well, it's not that i'm not excited.. it's just because he's not my idol. So normally when he was on any magazine's coverpage, i will just treat it like.. : "oh.. jolleen's husband.. (now ex-husband 'cause she likes tht Because i'm stupid leader)". And normally, Jolleen will just call me and say:

Jolleen: Konichiwa~~ YINGHUI!!! Akanishi is on XXX mag coverpage!! I'm so happy!!
Me : Really? Whoa.. so you are going to get it right?
Jolleen: Of course! I'm going to kino to look for it maybe tomorrow.

But because this Anan mag, it has become:

Jolleen: Anehaseyo~~ (notice the greeting, it has changed 'cause she switched her love) YINGHUI!!! ARE YOU ONLINE NOW?! GO ONLINE NOW!! I HAVE SOMETHING TO SHOW YOU!!
Me : Yes? What do you want to show me?
Jolleen: GO ONLINE NOW AND YOU WILL SEE IT!!!
Me : Ok..

After i finished seeing that mag which i took 30mins to force myself to look at it..

Me : OH MY GOD.. I CANT BELIEVE IT! I'M LOOKING AT AKANISHI'S XXXX
Jolleen: Yes!! I'm so happy that he got onto Anan!!!!
Me : So you going to get it huh?
Jolleen: OF COURSE! I'VE ALREADY CALLED KINO AND ASKED THEM WHEN IS THE SHIPMENT COMING IN SO THAT I CAN RESERVE IT IMMEDIATELY! (In another word, I must get that mag)

For your info, Anan mag is quite a sex education magazine. Occasionally it will invite some artists to pose for its mag's coverpage with a few bonus photos inside. And normally, those photos are quite naked. Except that the front bottom part will be covered, we can see almost everything of that artist. So far, okada (V6), matsu jun(Arashi), yamap( NEWS) has gone for it. Kame went on Anan too, but his is not counted as extreme because he covered almost everything!! He is the most covered guy on Anan mag. Now, it's Akanishi's turn.. So i saw Akanishi's Anan issue thanks to Jolleen.. PEACEFUL DAYS~ K-A-T-T-U-N~

~And so, XXXX means Butt~

马有乱蹄，人有失手，再聪明的人偶尔也会有失常的时候。

I find that this is a very interesting sentence so, decided to share it here. ^^

I think that it suits me a lot.
I'm smart, although i SOMETIMES do stupid things! Hahaha..

~off to listen to my newly arrived 5x10 album while reading novel~

This is cutE!! hahah!! i found it in some webbie and decided to copy it here. If only i can bring this to sch for maths. Haha!!

~So bored that i wander ard webbies~

Secondary
Jolleen
WanYing
Joanne
HuiShi
CheeYong
Eugenia
Valerie Lee

JC
Melvin
Jess
Kenn
Boompiah
Thong Thong

Cousin
Gilbert

Uni
Afiza
Effonda

I love it too much to remove it. Since this is my blog, u have to bear seeing it everytime u visit.\(^0^)/


It has been long since i last updated myself on JJ's news. I wonder how is he.. Haha.. Got these from his blog~


My Kame's hair is back to normal!! He's a boy who loves baseball to core. He is so pretty that i must share it! ~<3


Latest Image of Aiba in 5X10 collection. He's such a cute boy who loves to run and jump~


Mr. Pokya. My main source of joy. Haha.. Ojisama in disguisE~


Xiao Gen Ban. He is my ideal husband in the drama of Infamous Chil Princesses~